Saturday, February 03, 2007

another shitty day, until black friday


i had big hopes today. they didnt materialise. now it seems like i have to do this myself (sorry for being vague).
but yeah, tomorrow, from tomorrow i need to work extra hard to get this film made. i dont know what i have made. i think this film is so personal, that it might not work for anyone else, simply cus i didnt make it for anyone else.
and just the thought that someone will criticise even one frame of my film, makes my blood boil.
i'm crazy man. i think the americans have it easy, they either go to a therapist, a counsellor, or maybe a friend or family member.....
we indians find doing any of that too difficult....well i wont generalise, but i think india as a culture promotes self angst because its anti 'us' messing 'other' peoples heads with 'our' problem(dis-jointed sentences=fucked head)
...how many of you have grown up being yelled at for crying!!! lol....alright. well this is the case with me atleast...

fuck i'm digressing, this a confession of a film-maker website and film-makers are not people.
they are heartless,gutless,selfish,horse-blinded,lunatics.

....and the worst of them make the best film-makers.

and anurag is one of them,here's to anurag kashyap and his film 'black friday'. the most courageous film-maker in modern indian cinema history and my definition of a film-maker.
his film finally opens this week....

4 comments:

Unknown said...

hi hbj,
i am calm. its calming to see you hover around my blog,

like a..
bumble bee around its favorite rose.

like a..
gentle cool breeze,reminding you to breathe.

like..
cold spring water down a bloody knee.

like..
the lump in a throat,which gags memories.

amen.

Anonymous said...

yohan...

you sound like you are this tall, handsome, sensitive, creative genius who is just misunderstood by everyone around him....

that is so attractive in a guy....

would you like to call me sometime?


-purna

Anonymous said...

man, just because a guy called anurag kashyap made a film like BLACK FRIDAY, does not make him great, let him make a film like MANTHAN, which made the people of a village fund for the project, that is what i would call a path breaker or a trend setter in the society.

Unknown said...

hey hi,
who is this anti-anurag chap on my blog :). pleased to see your comments.
anurag is special because he fought for freedom of expression.
mr.shyam benegal is an icon.
manthan is a very special film, i agree and i dont be-grudge its importance, esp cus it was made a the cusp of-- the white revolution.
please leave your name.